Blind Expressions…………

The next day Neha woke up early to go to the phone booth.
The whole night she was thinking, what she really felt for Raj, was it just friendship
or something more than that and did he too feel the same for her.
But if he felt the same, why was he behaving this way,why was he hanging around with someone else….why ?
why he didn’t tell her …why not….or is it only she feeling this way…but if I ask will it affect our friendship……oh I don’t want to lose my friend
….but better ask him rather than keeping something in mind.
She had made up her mind…she had to ask… whoever asks first ….
it doesn’t matter…what matters is I need to know…..thought she

She needed to talk to Raj….

At the other end…Raj too didn’t know what to do…he couldn’t sleep too thinking about only Neha… all the time.
Why is she not responding… why is she still so kool about all this
Didn’t she get the point….I am doing this all to get her…that’s how Rahul told me to do….

if you want to know a girl’s feeling’s for you then hang out with someone else…infront of her…oh didn’t she get it still, that we are not just friends…we are more than that….or doesn’t she feel the same….
I need to know this… I will ask her..yes that’s what I will do…
but Rahul says…shouldn’t ask girls directly…but then…
no more Rahul….It’s only me and Neha….
I will talk to her…..need to call her….

Raj heads for the phone booth too.

Neha takes the reciever…..29319….is it G.H..I mean Girls Hostel…
Neha turns back to see Raj on the next phone
Hey…..Neha….u here….oh not on the phone….I was calling you…
oh not you…I am sorry Neha.. I am sorry, she is here…..Thanks.
said Raj and bumped the handset.

Neha could not help but laugh and said….You will always be like this ,I suppose….
Oh!!! I am sorry, I was calling your hostel…..said Raj hiding his
embrassment.
‘My hostel’  ….really or ‘Girl’s Hostel’…..said Neha laughing again.

Raj was about to say something…when Neha stopped him…and said…
I too was calling you up…..Good that it’s a saturday, so we won’t
have any lectures.
Oh ya!!! That’s good…I wanted to talk to you too ….
oh ya!!! about Rachna , I suppose…started Neha before Raj completed
his sentence.
‘Oh no!! I wanted to talk about something else……Raj started
But this was what you wanted to talk about…about Rachna…that’s
what you told me…..said Neha

Jus give me a break ok….I want to talk about you and me ….about you and me
just me and you….I am sorry about all Rachna stuff…

I did it to make you realise about our relationship…but I was wrong..I made a
mess about everything…I am sorry…..I hurt you ..I hurt myself…
I don’t know why I did something like that…may be….I like you…
not may be….I like you…and I think I love you…but I don’t how you
gonna react…but I couldn’t help myself from loving you…
I always loved you…I found in you more than a friend.
I can’t think someone else other than you…but I don’t want you
to give up our friendship…if you don’t have the same feelings…..I still will always be your friend and never will come in your way…
And I am very sorry for all this…I should never have done anything.

Raj couldn’t control his emotions….tears rolled down …
He quickly wore his goggles to hide away his tears….

Neha was dumbstruck by his words…she didn’t know how to react.
She went close to Raj…she gave her hanky…and when she saw he
was reluctant to take it..she slowly wiped off his tears…
She slowly took his hand and whispered “why did you not tell me before?”
Raj looked up..Neha continued ‘I too wanted to talk about this,
I wanted to know our relationship…I wanted to know why I can’t do anything
without you…Why the last two days were like hell for me …when
you said you like Rachna…It really hurt me…may be I never thought about our relationship..
may be I took everything lightly..I too like you…and you are more than
a friend to me…

Oh really, or are you saying this to make me happy….I can never be
happy if you are not… and I don’t want you to rush into anything..
The day you feel the same …then I will accept that you too love me
but not now, because I know, now you are doing all this because…
I am your friend…but I am sure the day will come….

Let’s complete college and then see…..and I will be always there with you,
whatever you think….said Raj….and added don’t worry about me…
I won’t go anywhere..I am with you….You will never lose me…
You can move to your hostel….oops..Girls hostel rite?

Neha smiled weakily ….may be Raj was right…may be today I didn’t
have those emotions for him…may be I will have…but why rush…we
have time….a lot of time

Yes we still have time said Raj…This brought Neha back to the present.
…What happened….movie yet to start 10 mins….in TBS…You can
start munching the pop corn till then..ok …..continued Raj….

Neha smiled… it had been 5 years …since they completed their B.E
honours together.Then He went off to U.S to do his M.S and she stayed back to do
her M.tech degree from one of the IIt’s.

They had still stayed in touch.
A guy had come home to see her….she had told Raj about him over the phone
and he had said to go forward with the proposal…but how she was not
comfortable with him at all…and how she had told him about Raj
…and how he had said…don’t you understand still then…that you
too love him….and how she had got a chance to come to U.S then
for her work assignment….how happy he was to see her…and how
most of the weekends they used to spend together….and how she couldn’t
hide her emotions …and she told him …that she too loves him…
on a halloween day...when they were surrounded with children roaming
around with their baskets for trick or treat.
He couldn’t believe what he heard….

Hey u there…..movie starting …oops these adds….oh I can’t wait anymore…said Raj
Neither can I….Let’s get married…I love you.. .

I know you waited a lot and I don’t want you to wait anymore….I am sorry for
keeping you waiting..not anymore…not anymore…said Neha tears
flowing through her eyes….

Raj smiled and gave her a punch and said….Oh my dear….don’t
you have a goggs…..
What……hey girls can cry haan…..said Neha half crying..half
smiling…in his arms…