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Rising Emotions – Part 1(new series)

Disclaimer : This story is work of fiction.Any resemblence with any living person in India or Abroad is purely coincidential.Author holds no responsibility for the same and no lawsuits will be entertained :)

Sometimes.. life leaves you at such a point.. from where all things seem too far… a lot distant… you can’t go back.. you can’t go forward… it seems you are controlled all the time.. & you are on a pause mode..d problem is there is no backward mode..
You need to think abt a lot of things before you take a stand.. but what when you have just reached a limit… a limit wherein you can’t take things anymore, what should one do.. still stay quiet..just because lot of things rely on that decision or for once think abt yourself!!!!!
Priya was still thinking…At one time she & Ashish had been so happy together..but now.. she felt this relationship
had no meaning…no respect nothing…Ashish very soon had started ignoring her.. ignoring everything.. even their relationship..
In the initial days, he was just not ready as any other guy & didn’t want to commit. He still wanted to live a life, he
lived always,, he didnt want to adjust.. he didnt want to share his time..he was only thinking abt himself..
Priya knew that Ashish was just not ready and one day he will understand his responsibilities towards her.
Initially Ashish never ignored her on purpose, & Priya did understand this. She tried to adjust her life style
so that Ashish does not have to adjust anything..
Before meeting Priya, Ashish’s weekday’s started with work .. ended with work.. On Friday evenings he played bridge with his friends till it was morning.Weekend’s he used to play whole day with his friends. After meeting Priya he used to spare or squeeze half an hour from his weekend schedule for her.. & now, he just didn’t want to share any of his time with her.Initially Priya tried to convince him, but Ashish just didnt want to understand.
Ashish was a nice guy, loved by all his friends, who never took anything seriously, a more carefree guy. Priya loved him.. but she was sick of his habits..he didnt seem to think about them.. everything seemed to be a joke for him.. Before meeting him, Priya was such a lively chirpy talkative girl, full of enthu.. but now she was tired.. she was tired of this relationship.. she was tired of compromising all the time, she was tired of Ashish’s ignorance.she had lost her life to be with Ashish.. but Ashish never seemed to notice anything. Priya was tired of him now…She didn’t have Ashish to talk to.. She didn’t have anyone to talk about this for that matter..
Mere love can’t bind a relation.. commitment is also important…Priya had told Ashish the last day.. he seemed to ignore it as always.. asking her if she saw the IPL…She didn’t know, what was going on in her life… what will happen.. she was totally shattered..she felt she was tied up.. she couldn’t express her feelings openly anymore….she didn’t know how to make Ashish understand.. but she knew one thing.. this relation was going totally out of control and Ashish was taking her for granted totally.
Ashish knew that, even if Priya was upset, she would come back to him. He knew she loved her so much that, she just can’t be upset all the time with him.. He had even stopped making up for his mistakes..He knew Priya will understand. But he didn’t know.. this slowly was making them apart. Priya had started to feel this relation as the biggest mistake in her life.. their relation was getting sour..with every passing day…
Priya was still on two minds.. She still loved Ashish and she knew he too did love her.. But, there were many more things which needed attention.. She didn’t know what to do.. She tried to explain her condition to Ashish.. She tried explaining Ashish,that he needs to give some time for them as well..Ashish seemed to nod from his laptop,,
Was he even listening..??? She knew it was high time.. she can’t live like this anymore…
hmmmmmm….It was time for Priya to leave office.. Today she thought she will convince Ashish… yes she can convince him.. Her car had broken down, so Ashish had promised he will pick her up by 6. She will talk him over a coffee…at starbuck’s…she knew.. they just needed some time together..some time only for themselves.. yes she knew everything would be fine again…
It was already 7, Ashish was still not there.. This was not new,,,, Ashish always seemed to forget things.. Priya had started to live with it.
She called him.. no response… she called him again.. no response.. She thought he would be in a meeting and thought of waiting. It was around 8.45 now.. She tried calling him again and again…now she started panicking.. if everything was fine with Ashish…she couldn’t lose him for sure…she was new to this place.. so she didn’t know any of his friends numbers.. She tried his office no.. but it was busy….& then it was ringing & ringing… no response again……  she thought of heading back home..she finally got a taxi at around 9:40. The place seemed almost dark with noone around…. she was worried.. really worried… what would have happened…
She didn’t know what to do,she didn’t know whom to contact now. She didn’t know, if she should have waited at her office or she should head to Ashish’s office..But she didn’t know his office address..she finally thought … its better she reach home & check there…. She reached home by 10:15.. She just ran in to knock..
She kept knocking the door…. no response… she didn’t know what to do.. she was very worried for Ashish..what might have happened to him.. she started opening the door with the keys..but the door seemed 2 not budge…she told to herself.. stop panicking.. everything would be fine… ALL IZZ WELL>..ALL IZZ WELL
Finally she opened the door to find herself in a dark room…She directly headed into all the rooms to search for Ashish.. there was no trace of him… She didn’t know what to do..
She again tried calling him… but he was not picking…she was all in tears now… what to do… in a new place… where she didn’t know anything ..where will she find him… where.. she wrote a note for Ashish saying if he is back… call her.. she headed out of the apartment.. to search for Ashish… what could have happened to him..
It was almost 11:50 now.. Priya somehow found her way back to the apartment.. it was too cold out.. She thought she might find Ashish home..but she found herself alone at the apartment…
She was all in tears… noone to contact….she waited next to the window..looking out to find a trace of Ashish…but she couldnt see anyone….she didn’t know when she slept by the window…
She got up with the sound of a light hummming from the kitchen… she looked up.. it was almost 3.00 in the morning.
She went slowly to find Ashish drinking water.. She looked up at him, he was fine… Ashish suddenly looked up and smiled at her.. “hmm did I wake u up.. I thought I was not loud… “
Priya couldn’t believe him.. he came back at 3.00 in the night and owed him an explanation… and on the other hand, he acted as if everything was normal…
“Where had you been all the time…..do you see d time…can u explain..” Priya couldn’t control herself.. she was full of mix emotions.. she was happy to see him safe & sound… angry to see his attitude & hurt & felt like crying… Ashish took it too casually …& said…”aahhh one of my friends.. asked me to join them for dinner… & then we played… I just forgot to inform you.. & then it was too late, so I thought u would be asleep by then”
Priya just couldn’t believe what she heard… she didn’t understand… “How can she ever love a person who was standing in front of him…she didn’t know if he was the same Ashish…..she didn’t know what to say to Ashish..who seemed so normal..as if everything was normal
Priya was about to ask something… when Ashish headed to his bed.. saying he was feeling sleepy…
Now, she knew what to do.. Yes enough is enough… There had to be a limit to everything ..she really was not ready to take that attitude…She had forgiven Ashish on mostly all such instances, but now he had reached tooo far…she couldn’t handle this relationship anymore… She needed time to think about them… Yes she did need time…It was 5.00 in the morning.. she was ready… she got up… wrote a letter for Ashish…& kept it on the breakfast table for him to read.

She took her handbag, she left the keys behind.. she slowly closed the door behind her….
 
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